MY HEART IS FILLED WITH HATE!!!

jux went to a blog..it spoilt my mood, things started to gt rowdy again..
i was thinkin to myself..aren't they tired??
it's really getting ugly..di i need to gt myself into this shit?(sorry for using de word "shit"but no choice, i can think of no other word to describe, cuz my eng sux..)

it spoilt my mood..i hate it..tt blog i went to, is always filled of quarrel, vulgar, all de ugly side of ppl..i dun wish to mention names..but it have gone too far..
i dun wanna pursuade but it's gonna left me no choice if it started to blog bout nast things again..btw, tts nt de secret for me to stay till so late..

wat should i do?i'm hurted by mr mok, anger by it, and i cant seem to gt away from jerks who always hurt me..
i'm goin to sch 2morrow..nt to settle things, but i wanna study..work hard..
dun wanna fight or anything, i jux wanna fufill my dreams and tts it..
i'm goin to retain myself from anyone again..

but nt to u guys who is always be beside me or behind me..
i'm hurt..deeply hurt..
i'm angry..by ur stupid action..
i'm gonna turn to stone..
by "friends"
by de "friends"whom i tot i can trust..
sorry godfather..i can't keep up with my promise to u..
i'm truely sorry but "friends" really left me with no choice..
but i wun turn bad or anything..
so tts only breakin half a promise i made to u..
plz forgive me..
i can't wait nor i can't tolerate..

u might see or u might heard..
but tt can't change anything i wrote..
tts de way i do my things...
and no one shall be able to say anything..


is there really someone i can trust?
someone out there in this world.
i hope i can really find you before i die,
but will it be a dream in sleep?
sorrow, hate, anger, pain.
is nothing aft i am dead.
but things you left behind for others,
is just a topic for them to joke.

i'm hurt.
really hurt.
thus, i'm gonna turn cold.
stone cold, heart cold.
nothing but my body left.
you may see it, you may not.
that only depend on you.
different people, different view.
and that depend only on you.

gonna wait for a key that works again.
but that may be a thousand years again.
but is it worth the wait?
or i'm just dreaming again.
but, the true sorrow remain.
in my heart that turn stone cold.
waiting for a beat to start.
my heart to pump again.



hahax..starting to turn into a long drag..
till next time ppl..
my blog will turn into my heart..
stupid comments, idiot spams, i accept all..
but it will turn to rubbish as i dun care..
u may hate or u may be guilt..
i dun giv a stupid damn..
if any of u spots a vulgar, i apologise..but i cant find other word to describe if i wrote tt..
as i had said..my eng sux..
lik it said in other blog..
i dun care..
cuz tts me and i accept..