STUDY I.N.G

wah...tis week i broke my record..hahax..
i study daily at home..
hahax

tis week i always return home straight aft my sch den study..hahax
except for friday..hahax..decided to rot and play com..den 2day go changi airport study..
actually i tot we studying at TCC or Coffeebean..
but instead we went to mac..麦..hahax

bibong (OJY) 2day vr de ke lian..kana suan by us..
but we will continue to suan u till we all die de..hahax..and we sure will live vr long de..
tts y i say u ke lian..
2day while celest and me doin math bible ojy and xl vr bo liao beside us..
hahax..
till around 6.30 lik tt den ojy cannt tahan den distube us..
hahax..
in de end ojy had to go first cuz her ah ma birthday...Happy Birthday ah ma(OJY DE)

i enjoyed OJY company 2day..cuz when we study till we tired le we gt entertainment..
and it is.. OJY..
hahax

my mother makin cola chicken wing nw..i tried one le..wun die..and quite tasty..nt bad nt bad..
tts all..gonna jiayou...jiayou for O LVL!!!!

bye..

SADDNESS FILLED MY HEART....

de weather nw is really hot...or i should say warm..
xueling lindsey and celest nw at livin room playin wii...they so stupid lor..de instruction so easy to understand but they read so long den still dun gt it..hahax

i suess i'm left with only with em..i jux couldnt trust other ppl any longer..
btw...on early aft noon i jux receive a news..a bad one for me..

my grandfather had died..and i cant go back to malaysia to sent him off and see him for de last time..its been vr long since i saw him..lik..a year or even longer..
he might be in malaysia but i still miss him and my other family member in malaysia..
i cant go back to see him cuz nw i'm havin prelims..
stupid prelim..drag for so long for wat..if it ends early i could go back to send him..

i feel so sad..tt i had lost a grandfather..he's quite ok as a grandfather..when he used to come out to visit us he gt buy things for us to eat..mainly tibits..
i think it's bad cuz i wun be able to see him again..we might nt talk often but to me..my family is de most important thing to me in de whole wide world..

sorry for nt being able to send u..grandfather..
and thank you for bein kind to us..even though we didn't talk a lot..
good bye...grandfather..

MY HEART IS FILLED WITH HATE!!!

jux went to a blog..it spoilt my mood, things started to gt rowdy again..
i was thinkin to myself..aren't they tired??
it's really getting ugly..di i need to gt myself into this shit?(sorry for using de word "shit"but no choice, i can think of no other word to describe, cuz my eng sux..)

it spoilt my mood..i hate it..tt blog i went to, is always filled of quarrel, vulgar, all de ugly side of ppl..i dun wish to mention names..but it have gone too far..
i dun wanna pursuade but it's gonna left me no choice if it started to blog bout nast things again..btw, tts nt de secret for me to stay till so late..

wat should i do?i'm hurted by mr mok, anger by it, and i cant seem to gt away from jerks who always hurt me..
i'm goin to sch 2morrow..nt to settle things, but i wanna study..work hard..
dun wanna fight or anything, i jux wanna fufill my dreams and tts it..
i'm goin to retain myself from anyone again..

but nt to u guys who is always be beside me or behind me..
i'm hurt..deeply hurt..
i'm angry..by ur stupid action..
i'm gonna turn to stone..
by "friends"
by de "friends"whom i tot i can trust..
sorry godfather..i can't keep up with my promise to u..
i'm truely sorry but "friends" really left me with no choice..
but i wun turn bad or anything..
so tts only breakin half a promise i made to u..
plz forgive me..
i can't wait nor i can't tolerate..

u might see or u might heard..
but tt can't change anything i wrote..
tts de way i do my things...
and no one shall be able to say anything..


is there really someone i can trust?
someone out there in this world.
i hope i can really find you before i die,
but will it be a dream in sleep?
sorrow, hate, anger, pain.
is nothing aft i am dead.
but things you left behind for others,
is just a topic for them to joke.

i'm hurt.
really hurt.
thus, i'm gonna turn cold.
stone cold, heart cold.
nothing but my body left.
you may see it, you may not.
that only depend on you.
different people, different view.
and that depend only on you.

gonna wait for a key that works again.
but that may be a thousand years again.
but is it worth the wait?
or i'm just dreaming again.
but, the true sorrow remain.
in my heart that turn stone cold.
waiting for a beat to start.
my heart to pump again.



hahax..starting to turn into a long drag..
till next time ppl..
my blog will turn into my heart..
stupid comments, idiot spams, i accept all..
but it will turn to rubbish as i dun care..
u may hate or u may be guilt..
i dun giv a stupid damn..
if any of u spots a vulgar, i apologise..but i cant find other word to describe if i wrote tt..
as i had said..my eng sux..
lik it said in other blog..
i dun care..
cuz tts me and i accept..

sian..

2morrow gt remmedial for math..haix..so sian..
i think aft math i goin for chem for a while den i go watch de juniors de match le..actually nt there to watch but there to play bball..hahax

meetin xueling and celest 2morrow..wonder we can play bball with xiao de mah?!...
hahax..
borin lar..
dunno wat to blog bout..
well..today xueling and celest come my hus to study den eat..tt xueling nothin to study den come for fun de..so gd..no need to study liao..><

wonder i will be able to wake up 2morrow nt..
hahax
i so late le still haven sleep..
actually i goin to sleep le..bt for some private reason decide to use a while more com..
tts all..

lazy.i.n.g

long time nv blog le..
too lazy le..didnt study for quite a few days le..i feel so lazy

nw watchin comic online...tryin to cure myself for bein pissed off..
gonna study hard..dun wanna lose..
2day de weather vr gd..nt raining and yet de wind is so cold..(so cool)
wish everydayday is jux lik 2day..

风啊，刮吧!
雨啊, 下吧!